As I sat in my normal spot (front row, left side) this week, it hit me like a ton of bricks.I had just finished leading a powerful worship set, where I felt like I truly engaged in heart-level, Spirit-guided worship with the congregation. Then, I sat down and immediately disengaged. I started making lists in my head of things I would do that afternoon. I thought about what a tiring morning it had been working with the team. I thought about how hungry I was because I hadn’t eaten yet. I thought about pretty much EVERYTHING except the Word of God that was being boldly preached not 10 feet in front of me.
I realized in that moment the habit I had fallen into these last few weeks -- the habit of disengaging when my “part” in the worship service is complete and all eyes are off of me and onto someone else. It hit me how easy it is to look at the service as a compilation of elements with split responsibilities rather than an opportunity for people to meet with God through worship and the Word.
Maybe you can relate. As worship leaders, we carry so much responsibility for the functionality of a Sunday morning that it’s challenging to know how much we can really engage without risking things falling apart. However, do we really do ourselves any favors by disengaging?
I believe whole-hearted engagement in the Word of God preached is a vital part of spiritual growth. Not only that, it’s a gift that we are privileged to receive. Just as it’s important for the pastor to participate in the worship time, it’s just as important for us as leaders to glean from and be changed by the Scripture being put forth in our churches.
But it’s a challenge -- it’s a battle to stay present when our mornings started 5 hours earlier and we’ve been in meetings about this series for weeks on end. I would venture to say it’s worth the battle. Don’t let disengagement be the way that the enemy gets a hold of your heart. Fight to engage and watch as the Holy Spirit uses your peers, elders and His Word to continue to transform your life.
How about you? Do you find it a struggle to stay engaged on Sunday mornings, week after week, as a worship leader? How do you go about fighting the temptation to disengage? We would love to hear your thoughts!